"The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of. Do you ever get that feeling?"
~Holly Golightly~ Breakfast at Tiffany's (1961)
Today I am suffering from the mean reds. I do not want to be suffering from the mean reds for today is a special day, it is the Nuffnang Queensland Bloggers Meet. It is a joyous day, or supposed to be.
But today I am suffering the emotional hangover from yesterday's events. And probably having a few withdrawal symptoms kicking in as well. When you leave a site that has played a very strong role in your life, I guess it is to be expected and I must allow time to get rid of this feeling of failure. And loss. And disappointment. Bit like the breakup of a romance that wasn't really working anymore. You remember when times were good, in fact you tend to forget the bad and only mourn the good. It will be a while till I find my new normal I think.
I will get past this feeling of melancholy, I certainly intend to try and shed this cloud before I pick up the new friend on the way. I will laugh and chat, nod and listen. Just deep down will be a little niggle, a thought, a doubt... "What if I am not being clear, am I offending anyone, are my words being taken the wrong way?" But you won't see it because it will be hidden deep below the surface, covered by my smile.
Damn these mean reds...