Thursday, January 7, 2010

Ambition, dreams and reality




I have come to realise I am easily disheartened. I walk into bookstores and allow myself to wallow dispiritedly amongst the maze of shelves. There are so many books, so many writers, so few opportunities. A multitude of wonderful writers exist in this world; the majority undiscovered, unpublished, hopelessly lost in the masses of other desperate talented tale spinners... it is easy for me to lose confidence. It may be that I am a quitter, or that I do not have the drive or energy to fight my way through hundreds or possibly thousands of rejection slips. It could be that I just don't have what it takes and I am kidding myself to even harbour these thoughts. All I do know is this need to write burns through my very soul, even if it merely results in reading material for a select group of family and friends.




Hell, we can always use them to start the fire in winter!






11 comments:

Jenifer said...

If it were easy it wouldn't be worth it. Keep going, keep trying, just keep doing what you love and if it is meant to be, it will happen. If not, then you are still doing what you love.

Melissa said...

Don't be discouraged. You're good. You *know* you are, you must.

Keep at it. And in the meantime, you're a priveledge to read.

PinkPatentMaryJanes said...

If that's what drives you just start. Write each day - hey, blogging's the perfect warm-up exercise!

Jen said...

Have you seen Julie & Julia? your post and mention of the writing rejections made me think of this movie. You have the drive and determination and you certainly have the skill to write :) so don't give up hope. Perhaps once you finish your book it wont matter if a hundred publishers reject it, putting that much of your heart and soul into a project will ensure that you love it, which may just be the most important thing of all :) ...to qoute dory.."just keep swimming, just keep swimming..swimming..swimming" :D

Kakka said...

If you love to write, then that is what you should do, doesn't matter whether it gets published in the traditional way, or if you decide to share it in cyberspace. What matters is the fulfillment and pleasure it brings you. Sure it would be great to be a best selling author - and maybe that is actually in your destiny - but even if it is not, it is something you love to do. And if it is in you, it has got to come out. Hugs from Perth my talented friend xxx

Madmother said...

Well, I'll leave it to the 10 year old to sum it up:

"It's a bit like poo, Mum. It has to come out somewhere sometime!"

Don't know where he gets that twisted side from...
:-)

Heather said...

I know this feeling so well, it is sometimes so overwhelming to see all those books, all with authors about whom we have never heard, and they are the successful ones that been published! Sigh. And yet like you I HAVE to keep writing. if i don't I get a sort of itchy brain. the words need to come out. that's just the way it is.

InfoMidwife said...

I do like reading your blog... Have you heard of "The last lecture" by Randy Pausch... he said "he kept all the rejection letters he got because it made him stronger and a better person" watch it and be inspired...... here is the link....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ji5_MqicxSo

livemorenow said...

keep at it - network, practice, dabble, it all helps to get you where you want to go.

Madmother said...

I have no choice but to keep at it, lol. I would explode otherwise.

I have a novel I have been working on, not very faar into it yet. I had rewritten a lot of it as a short story but it just didn't work. Too much trying to be squeezed into too little.

After events of the last few days I am inspired to go back to the drawing board and start it afresh.

It is the story of a woman's revenge after a fatal accident with a truck...

RIP Olivia, may your death be not in vane. We need to get these cowboy truckies off the roads!

Cathy said...

I agree with everyone else - just write!