Monday, April 19, 2010

And Again We Fall.

How on earth do I help him when he cannot help himself? My heart breaks as he has an epic fail day once again.

Do they think I am too hard on him? Do they not see the heartbreak behind the tough facade? I have to be hard, I have learnt through experience that to comfort and sooth leads to further emotional degeneration. Can they not understand how much I fear him disintergrating? Permanently?

What the hell do I do now.



8 comments:

PinkPatentMaryJanes said...

Don't worry about 'them'. Think of your darling boy and do what you can to help him through every day. There's no right way to act or react - you can only follow your heart and do what you truly feel is best. xx

Ro said...

Hugs.
I hear ya, been there and still doing that.
Have a cuppa, take a deep breath and climb back up on that bucking bronco.
I rate your landing as a 9.5 for difficulty (((hugs))).

E. said...

I'm sorry things aren't going so well at the moment.

Kim Thompson said...

Wow. I felt way myself recently. Feeling, understanding, and acknowledging your pain.

Lori said...

:(

Kakka said...

Never ever beat yourself up about tough love - to be the best parent, you need to work out the line. You have done that - it does not matter what anyone else thinks. I believe in you. xxx

Natacha said...

It will always be a battle between when to get angry and when not to... when to expect more and when not too... I too beat myself up on these and more when I am exhausted and not sure what to do next ... hang in there...

Lisa said...

Just keep putting one foot in front of the other . . .and know that you love him. xx