Swings and Roundabouts

I have recently added a couple of new finds to my blog roll. I seem to go in cycles: you know... Full tilt, riding that white pony up and down on the ASD roundabout, researching, reading, being proactive; to falling in a denial heap in the silver coach section, sitting on the bench unable to move, discuss or even mention *shudder* Asperger Syndrome. It is quickly approaching a decade of being on this ride, and even the strongest of us end up with motion sickness after this long. Round and round, up and down, faster, slower, spinning ground...

Ah, but back to my finds. I follow a wonderfully informative, helpful blog,

 The Thinking Person's Guide To Autism

and it is through this blog and its myriad of contributors that I find many of my new haunts. It is via a wonderful link to an open letter that I have stumbled onto Pia's blog:

the crack and the light . She writes so eloquantly of the emotions and battles we parents of the special ones face. I am reminded of how the fire can burn from a mother's love and quest for answers and help. Memories of the fight we have waged for ten long years are re-ignited. Don't get me wrong, I have not forgotten the campaign nor abandoned my role as his advocate. It is just sometimes the heat is not as intense, and other struggles take priority. Sometimes I cannot even read of another's ASD journey, sometimes I am tired.

Sometimes it is good to be reminded of how it was. Sometimes it is necessary for us to now see how it is today. Go, have a read, it is pretty powerful stuff.

My Muse Has Run Away

And I don't know where she are...

Anybody know where she gone?

I is searching and searching...

NaBloPoMo

I was kicking myself over missing out on signing up for NaBloPoMo. Of course, it is beside the point that I was feeling low, and uninspired. My blog of late has been my emotional dumping ground, especially since I no longer trust my judgement in people. If only I had found my muse a little earlier in the month, I could be wallowing in the company of so many like minds.
For those who don't know, NaBloPoMo stands for National Blog Posting Month.  The goal is to write at least one post every day for the whole of the month.
Then I had an epiphany! Well, really I guess it was more of a brain fart to be honest. NaBloPoMo runs year around - it is that November is so popular due to the yummy prizes donated by the generous members themselves. I can join after all. Now I just need to work my way past the barrage of excuses bubbling forth into conciousness.

• Coming up to Christmas, mighty busy.
• You'll be on holidays for a few days at least, so you'll fail.
• You should wait until the kids go back to school, you'll be able to concentrate then.

Somedays it is hard hearing the voices in your head, and somedays it is impossible to ignore them cause they make sense. *Sigh*.